Friday, 23 October 2015

Fabric Experiments Sketchbook


 I decided to do a fabric sketchbook full of experiments so that I could practice with my use and melting of fabric as I have used fabric in some of my installations so I thought that it's a big jump of no fabric to fabric with loads of textures on so I created this book so I could experiment with different types of materials and sewing and later on in this book to start adding melted plastic and other textures on top or underneath and just experiment with the different types of fabric to gain a much deeper understanding and knowledge of how to use them and how they work best and in what ways they don't work.


This piece didn't work as well due to the base material being wool and when wool is burned it not only makes a horrific smell but it goes solid and crusty so if I was to use this I'd have to be careful with the amount I used in a piece as the colour's itself are very dark and overpowering which is why I'd also experiment with the very light and lacy material to show the contrast between the lightest fabric I'd bought and the heaviest.






I feel that this one in particular works extremely well as this is a very thin polyester blouse combined with a silk scarf both bought from a charity shop and the way these two materials melt into each other I think is fantastic as the colour from the two different fabrics has melted in areas combining the colours and creating very interesting texture. I shall definitely experiment with these two materials in future because as well both the materials are translucent and I feel this could be interesting to play around with later on in the book.


Friday, 16 October 2015

Updated P.I Essay to Include New Artists

In my art 3 Personal Investigation, I plan to follow a theme of 'mental health issues on LGBT+ people.' This topic is very personal to me as I am going to use it to find out why and the reasons behind statistics such as 'a member of the LGBT+ community is in grades 7-12 found that gay, lesbian, and bisexual youth were more than twice as likely than their heterosexual peers to have attempted suicide and were more likely to have completed suicide. Six times as likely to experience high levels of depression and eight times as likely to attempt suicide in their young adult years.' [1] Being a part of the LGBT+ community myself and also have experienced problems with mental health in the past I want to explore this and create pieces of artwork to represent the feelings and thoughts I was having during this period of time in my life and describe it through the medium of art and hopefully making my final piece an installation and focusing specifically on the mediums of texture, colour and form.

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 My first artist for my art 3 personal investigation is Tadeusz Machowski. Machowski was born in 1955 in Lancut, Poland. Since his early childhood, his main passion was all kinds of art. He has been developing his talent by creating realistic landscapes for about twenty years. Then, inspired by early twentieth century art, Tadeusz started looking for some other kinds of depicting reality and expressing emotions. Drawing inspiration from artists that had been created between 1940 and 1960, he started to work on his own abstract style.
 To describe this piece to someone who can't see it I'd start off by saying that the background looks as if it was created by paint being dragged in swift motion and then almost as if it has been washed away in certain areas to build up the ideas of layers all the different tones running throughout this piece. I really like the way the paint is applied as it reminds me of almost hallucinogenic colours, and I feel if I was to add colours to my pieces due to my theme narrowing me down on colour choices due to it being quite dark I would have to add the colours in a similar technique to this in order to keep that subtlety by still have the hints of colour. I would then also further describe it by saying that there is occasional paint drips every now and again and these paint drips seem to be colours that are the complementary colours to what colour the background is and this only emphasises the effect created by all these layers of paint.
The formal elements used in this piece are tone and colour. Colour is used in this piece not only in the layers of colour to create what I feel is quite a hallucinogenic piece all together making you want to keep looking at it this is again helped by the paint splats that are complementary colours to what colour is on the background behind it, always drawing your focus towards the centre of the piece. The element of tone is used by just looking at the amount of different shades of each colour is on the piece reinforcing the almost hallucinogenic vibe I get from this piece of work and I want to create almost the same effect in my work later on down the line.
 This piece of artwork is composed with the focus being in the middle of the piece where most of the paint splatter and layers of paint and all the different tones and shades are with the further out of the centre of the piece you get there being less colour and layers of paint and it becomes more washed out and almost like it has been blurred. This piece I feel is very hallucinogenic because with the centre of the piece being in the middle and there being so much to look at you could easily star at this piece for ages and just get lost in it even though on the surface it seems quite a simple piece and I want to replicate this sort of simplicity in my work but as you look at it closer you start to break down barriers and discover the very deep and personal meaning behind my pieces of work and the project as a whole.  
After researching about Machowski I discovered that his reasoning behind these pieces is Tadeusz finds inspiration from abstract expressionism of the mid 1940’s. The art movement had an immeasurable influence on the many varieties of work that followed it, especially in the way its artists used colour and materials. Machowski's works hope to capture some of the energy and excitement of the movement, yet strive to reflect his own sense and vision of reality within a contemporary context.' I feel he means this by he really wanted to experiment with his new found love for creating expressive artwork, but also wanted to show how excited the whole art community was about these new found styles of art and new ways to experiment with old materials in completely new ways.
 The elements I am going to be taking from Machowski's work is his use of colour and also the way he applies this colour to create this hallucinogenic effect that I feel this piece creates as I want to bring this way of applying paint and adding it to my knowledge of texture and creating some very bizarre and thought provoking pieces as I really want people to question what my topic is about and allow people to come up with their own ideas and interpretations of my work. I also want to do this because it's something I'm still not greatly confident about talking about so I want to mimic this by not disclosing what my theme of my work is until people actually see it and ask me what it is about.
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The second artist for my research investigation is Henk Peeters, he was born in 1925 in The Hague, in the Netherlands.Peeters uses his work to make the viewer conscious of his environment; he wants to bring about a sensitive consciousness. Henk Peeters studied Fine Art at the Koninklijke Academie voor Beeldende Kunsten in The Hague and taught from 1957 until 1972 at the Art Academy in Arnhem, the Netherlands, where he met other Dutch artists, such as Kees van Bohemen, Jan Henderikse, Armando and Jan Schoonhoven. Together with these artists, in 1958, Peeters forms the Hollandse Informele Groep (Dutch Informal Group.) The materials that Peeters selects for his works frequently have a very tactile appeal, while he simultaneously creates a certain untouchability; thus he used fire on canvases, leaving behind traces of thick smoke, or burned holes into plastic, the so-called 'pyrographies‘. With these often white works he was visually closely associated with the
German zero artists. There was also a clear relationship with nouveau realisme, another art movement going on at a similar time in France with artists such as Raymond Hains. He had a preference for modern, clean, industrial materials such as plastic and nylon, similar to the work I did last year for my exam response except rather than using colour Peeters keeps it simple.
To describe this piece to somebody who can't see it I would describe it as a canvas that has been burnt with many small holes with some slight unity but none of the holes are perfectly in line they're all slightly off balance from each other and this helps create a sense of uncertainty and untouchability that he loved creating in his pieces. This is why I feel these burn holes are so severe in there darkness is to create uncertainty but also just have a massive juxtra opposition from all the white around it.
The formal elements that have been used in this piece are; tone and texture. The way the tone is used in this piece is the stark difference from the sheer black of the burn holes and the white canvas all around these burn holes. The formal element of texture has been used in the canvas being flat and the way that canvas burns from my experience with it last year all these burn holes will be super textured and very fragile something which I could try to recreate in work to have connotations of the fragility of mental illnesses and how they consistently put you on edge. The other formal elements such as line, colour and form have been used but to a much lesser extent.
This piece of artwork is composed by the canvas being completely white and the lack of colour I believe is to connote how fragile this canvas is and perhaps this canvas itself is supposed to represent something, perhaps maybe people and wounds they'd received from World War 2 since this piece was created after it and Peeters would've lived through the second World War meaning he would've had to fight and would've seen some horrible things early on in his life. I also feel this is the reason this piece may have been created to represent how fragile we are as humans and how we are all the same with our little imperfections that make us all different and these burn marks are here to symbolise death or destruction of some kind perhaps to do with World War 2, perhaps maybe another reason much more personal to Peeters himself.
The elements I am going to be taking from Peeters' work is this sense of subtlety but also the sense that we're all the same despite us all coming from different walks of life no matter whether, you're straight, gay, bisexual, with a mental illness, living without a mental illness, we are all the same people and we're all fragile and need to help each other rather than destroying each other. This I believe is helped by the simplistic approach that Peeters uses for many different interpretations which is a similar effect I want to achieve in my work. I also love using the element of fire in my work and feel it can be one of the most powerful and most creative things to use in art which can gain such fantastic effects when used correctly but also requires slight skill because of the element of danger and uncontrollability which can be used to reflect the uncontrollability of people and their emotions.
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My third artist for my personal investigation is Cornelia Parker, an artist most famous for the piece I am going to be looking at and studying the most out of her work, Cold Dark Matter (An Exploded View.) Parker was born in 1956 and studied at the Gloucestershire College of Art and Design (1974–75) and Wolverhampton Polytechnic (1975–78). She received her MFA from Reading University in 1982 and honorary doctorates from the University of Wolverhampton in 2000, the University of Birmingham (2005) and the University of Gloucestershire (2008). In 1997, Cornelia Parker was shortlisted for the Turner Prize along with Christine Borland, Angela Bulloch, and Gillian Wearing the latter of three then went on to winning the prize. Parker is best known for large-scale installations such as Cold Dark Matter: An Exploded View (1991) first shown at the Chisenhale Gallery in Bow, East London in which she had a garden shed blown up by the British Army and suspended the fragments as if suspending the explosion process in time. In the center was a light which cast the shadows of the wood onto the walls of the room. Parker main inspiration for doing such pieces as Cold Dark Matter: An Exploded View could possibly have come from the fact that her mother was German and was in the Luftwaffe during the Second World War, and was then a prisoner of war for a couple of years after the war. Her British grandfather also fought in the trenches in the First World War so this may lead some insight into pieces such as the one I am going to be looking at.
 To describe the piece to someone who can’t see it I’d describe it as a shed and you can sort of tell this by the first thing that my eye goes to in the piece which is the window which still keeps its form so it is recognisable otherwise without proper context into the piece I wouldn’t be able to tell what it is Parker has used to create this piece. I however love the idea of that by hanging the bits of the shed and placing a light in the middle of the room to make it cast all these shadows on the wall that it is almost like a snapshot of time, but at the same time it is also quite a distorted snapshot of time and another great thing about this piece is that it will never be exactly the same or be easy to replicate which means it’d be unique every time again similar to the fact that nobody’s mental illness is the same as someone else who also suffers with it and I think this would be a fantastic element to include into my work and I plan on doing this at least once and maybe develop it even further.
The formal elements that are used in this piece are line and form. The way form is used in this piece as naturally because it’s a garden shed the piece is already quite large and is made even larger by the fact that all the pieces are hanging from the ceiling and are all much more spaced out to replicate an explosion. So if I were to recreate this piece due to their being much less classroom space I’d have to do it with a much smaller household object such as a bookcase or maybe a bed. I’d also use something like a bookcase as I could make it personal to me by adding old memories and things. This would also mean I could further show the extreme juxtaposition between childhood things and the sense of innocence and the destructiveness that depression can have on a person. The formal element of line is used in the way that Parker has placed the actual bits of the shed itself as she could have had them much closer together or perhaps place them in a different way to what she originally did and intentioned to do. The formal element of line is very important in this piece also because it has to be so intricately crafted because not one area can be too overcrowded to cast just the right shadows and have the dramatic affect that Parker wanted to achieve, but it also has to look visually appealing both ways with the shadows and the actual shed itself.
The composition of the piece is despite it being an explosion each piece of the shed is intricately placed so that the piece applies to the rule of thirds with the shed window despite being off kilter directly in the centre of the piece and another. Another important thing when it comes to the composition of this piece is while every piece has been deliberately placed it needs to placed in a way that seems natural and how the shed would look in an explosion.
After doing research on Cold Dark Matter I found an interesting article by the Tate [5] where they directly spoke with Parker and gain insight into her most famous piece to quote 'The garden shed came about because I was trying to find something universal and archetypal and that we all identified with and that was familiar to us. It's not the house but it's this kind of attic-y private place at the bottom of the garden which we put all our left-over stuff in. And so it seemed like a depository rather than the place that you live.', and the article goes on to further explain about why Parker decided to display the piece suspended from the ceiling and a little insight into the name of the piece 'The whole point of suspending it is to rob it of its pathos. After it was blown up and all the objects were lying on the floor, all very distressed, they had a pathos and somehow putting it back in the air where they were a little while before, it sort of re-animates them.
The title of the piece is called 'Cold Dark Matter: An Exploded View'. It's a two-part title really. The 'cold dark matter' I really like because obviously explosions have all kinds of connotations, dark ones being the most prominent. Also, 'cold dark matter' sounds like a psychological state - a mood or an atmosphere or a depression - I like the sound of that. It's a scientific term: it was coined to describe all the stuff in the universe you can't quantify, all the stuff they know is there but you can't see, which seemed a perfect description. And then 'an exploded view' is the kind of diagram you get in technical manuals to describe how a car works or a bike or a lawnmower, a very pragmatic laying out of stuff. And so that's what I was trying to do, to organise something that was totally beyond our control and emotional control.'
The elements I want to take from Parkers work are her use of everyday items and objects and give them new darker meanings, I particularly want to explore what she was saying when she said 'she wanted to rob the shed of its pathos' with pathos being an appeal to emotion, and is a way of convincing an audience of an argument by creating an emotional response, and this is what I want to create in my work. I want to create thought provoking pieces of work that make you stand there and self-reflect and really think deep about yourself, almost scare themselves with their own thoughts similar to how my thoughts can terrify me and make me feel so isolated and alone. That is the emotion I want to en capture in my installations this year. I want to create a fear of something that either doesn't exist or isn't there. 
Biblography
[1] http://www.healthline.com/health/depression/gay 
[2] Tadeusz Machowski, N/A, N/A, Mixed Media, http://www.abstractartistgallery.org/tadeusz-machowski/
[3] Henk Peeters, Pyrography #01, 1962, Smoke on plastic, http://www.arndtberlin.com/website/artist_13969?idx=p
[4] Cornelia Parker, Cold Dark Matter (An Exploded View), 1991, exploded garden shed, https://narratingwaste.wordpress.com/2010/09/11/cornelia-parker-and-the-untimeliness-of-waste/
[5]http://www.tate.org.uk/art/artworks/parker-cold-dark-matter-an-exploded-view-t06949/text-audio-transcript

Thursday, 15 October 2015

Drawing Sketchbook and adding texture to my sketchbook

Pages where I have started to add and develop texture into my drawing sketchbook.

This first page is a combination of multiple transfer techniques of my biro drawings I'd done of 'Blanketed Feelings' all melted into one another, I feel this is a strong start and I love how the piece has become so abstract that now I feel this is more about the movement, how the blanket flows and it's form.
 This page is one transfer technique of one of my biro drawings, I am planning to come back to this page and add some expressive paint marks similar to Machowski to start tying my artists together so I can start moving forward and experimenting on different scales and different mediums.
 This page is a biro drawing from 'Window into the Future' and this is a transfer technique melted and then a sheet of acetate over the top and further melted in to start combining different types of plastic and seeing the effect that it garnered me.
 This page is a combination of three different drawings from 'Window into the Future' with there being a drawing on the page and two transfers being placed over the top of it, and melted into one another. I like how because one of the drawings was done in blue biro it creates this interesting effect and adds a haziness to the drawing and makes it more 3D on the page and makes it seem like the piece is there suspended in the page which is why the drawings are in the middle so the lines don't finish it feels like it is hanging there.
This page is a combination of two pages of drawings of Kalms containers melted onto one another, I like how because I've drawn them sporadically on the page in areas the drawings have layered by accident but I like how this looks in creating movement as if the pots are spinning and suspended from the ceiling, another thing to note is in this piece one of the transfer techniques is of pencil drawings and when these drawings where melted they made a green colour that looks musky and is something I should keep in mind if I want to create this effect again.









These pages below are freehand finger paint drawing, focusing rather than on the shape of the blanket focusing on the movement and when doing this I looked directly at 'Blanketed Feelings' and not where my hand was on the page so that the drawing I created was 100% about not only what I see but also about the movement and how the blanket is in it's 3D form. There are also transfer techniques of  biro drawings of the angles I was looking at to show how the movement of the blanket looked when drawn but also to continue the motif of starting to add texture to my work.


This page is again another freehand painting of 'Blanketed Feelings' but this time instead of sellotape I experimented with tracing paper as it is slightly transparent and I wondered if I could use this to my advantage, however when burning it I realised quickly that is wasn't burning in the way I wanted so I want to come back to this piece and remove some of the tracing paper and replaced it with some other texture perhaps some sort of fabric so it links in better with not only my installations but also my fabric sketchbook that I started earlier today.
 This page is again another experiment with tracing paper I feel this piece works better out of the two due to the fact that there isn't a massively bright colour to distract from the burn marks and I feel overwhelm the piece but I feel the delicate and textured biro and pencil drawings of the Kalms containers works much better than the previous page.
This page in my sketchbook is my first experiment with fabric and by doing this it has made me realise that I want to experiment more with fabric so earlier today I bought a sketchbook and I am going to do an entire sketchbook full of fabric experiments and then that will be a nice lead up from a drawing with some fabric to textured fabric collage then leading up to my installations and my use of fabric in them.

Wednesday, 14 October 2015

Drawing Sketchbook (During the panic attack)

-The reason I have decided to show off these drawings is because I feel that these marks are unique beyond anything because to re-create these marks I'd need to have another panic attack and this makes these pieces very personal to me as it shows a short story of perseverance these pieces show a battle within myself. That is something I'm never going to genuinely create again, unless I'm to have another panic attack during a lesson and I thought that it was vital considering my theme to talk about these pieces of work.


At the start of today's lesson it started off as a normal art lesson does where we come together as a class and talk to each other about our work, I was getting myself stressed out about the amount of work I'd done over the weekend because I'd only done one installation and I'd decided I could take a weekend off to enjoy my birthday but when we came together something about the atmosphere was different I could sense it and it threw me off balance straight away and started getting me a little anxious.








































When I said what I'd done over the weekend it was met with looks of disappointment and anger that I hadn't done as much work as I could have, then while I'm speaking I start shaking slightly and I was further stressing myself out about that and by the time we were told to go and continue with our work I was still shaking worse so, and I ended up going into a full on panic attack at the back of the classroom at my desk while trying to draw. I was not only getting infuriated at that I was trying to draw and I couldn't keep my hand still. After having one of my best friends who sits next to me Tyler manage to calm me down after 45 minutes of not being able to breathe properly, having a tight chest and uncontrollable shaking during him calming me down, I was continuing to do work as I didn't want to return as a class and show nothing and get told off and disappoint people further.



Window Into The Future


During today's lesson I found an old canvas frame and had an idea to make an installation that hangs completely from the ceiling and is very high up in the air at an angle so you can look though it. The reasoning behind it being so high up is to almost dwarf the person looking at it to make them feel like a child again and I plan to use this installation in conjunction with a few of my other ones. This will create not only a layered effect but so you can literally look through this installation and see into what happened in the future in my life and for someone who suffers with anxiety and in essence overwhelm the viewer of the piece to create what it feels like having anxiety on a daily basis. I also took some close up photographs of the textures and bits/angles of the piece that I found interesting and these are displayed below.