Further Development of my Final Piece

Coming back to my final piece I decided that it was too serene and calm, I want to create the feeling of anxiety not serenity.

 So I decided that the viewer was too far away from the piece and that the viewer needed to be part of the madness and become en-capsuled in the mess. So I added more strings this time. All of them coming from the chair and out into the room so you sit down and your eyes follow these strings into the piece forcing the viewer to look at what is in front of them.

 I also added strings overhead to really block the viewer into the chair and feel enclosed and trapped in the chair and in the centre of this mess.

I also had to do this to manufacture a way in which the viewer was forced to sit down and view the piece from the perspective it is meant to be viewed from as when showing my piece to peers and teachers a lot of them stood in the doorway and didn't get involved with the piece and sit in the chair to gain the preferred perspective to view the piece.

 I also decided that to dim the light down as that was contributing to the feeling of serenity and calmness so I sewed a blanket out of odd bits of fabric I had leftover from the installations and hung it in front of the bookcase I had brought in earlier this year for a completely different idea that never came about. I upcycled (the art of taking something someone would consider trash and making it into art or something that is usable again) the bookcase as a table for more mess and to further enclose the space and emphasise the feeling of being trapped.

I have also decided to play music in the background and I have chosen a song by Lana Del Rey called 'Is This Happiness' as it has this haunting chorus combined with nothing but a piano. I have decided to play this song on a broken speaker I have that adds crackling to the background as the bass is broken and it gives off this feeling of it being played on a radio with bad reception.

I have decided to do this as it adds another layer of the trapped feeling. I have put a link below to the song.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZyC2N3LbPkE - Is This Happiness by Lana Del Rey  

Beginning to Present My Work

To present my work I decided to carry the motif of the strings being synapses and have my practice final piece out in the corridor to continue the environment outside of the room, as well and create a leadup to my final piece an actual journey which you have to walk through and hopefully see what it is like to experience anxiety and what it feels like to recover from it.

 I decided rather than having flat boards with no texture I decided to hang my photos up of my art similar to clothes on a washing line similar to the washing line I had in my room as a child that I hung all my photos on of all the happy memories I had. I then decided that behind where my practice final piece was situated I would have annotations of my work. I decided rather than leaving the board with no background as it was a heavy dark maroon red tone that I would get some wallpaper and make it look rushed to further push this idea of this place being disregarded and forgotten about.

Final Piece in The Dark

A series of photographs of my installation of my final piece to display what my final outcome looks like in its intended form in the darkness, examining what the textures, tones and lines look like in the dark.

Final Piece in The Light

A series of photographs to display the many and various textures used throughout my final piece.
The reasoning behind my final piece is that it is a metaphorical interpretation of inside of my mind and that because I suffer with anxiety it is chaos, which is why this room is trashed and disregarded similar to how I feel. Throughout the room I have subtle references to things I think and feel or experiences such as the blanket coming out of the closest this being a reference off members of the LGBTQ+ group having to 'come out' and how so much pressure is put on young LGBTQ+ youths to come out. 

The light behind it being the positive light the media gives off about coming out and this blanket obscures the happiness as I personally haven't had this beautiful happy experience this Hollywood stars have had, because it isn't real life. Hyper-reality Jean Baudrillard calls this. There is also references to me always having problems with my gender identity which is why there is women's clothing scattered throughout the piece referencing androgyny and the problem I've always had with my gender identity.