Reasoning For Some Photo's Being Out of Line

This post is to explain the reasoning why some of the photos are presented on my blog along with some of the text in a scruffy manner. 

This blog in itself is a piece with the some of the photos being in line some being out of line all being different thoughts and snapshots in time. Some of them are off because when you suffer with a mental illness you never can quite organise what is happening and you get easily overwhelmed. This is why this is done on my blog is to represent this and to make my theme run not only through my annotations and my practical work but also in the way I present my annotations on my blog.

I feel it is a small element that helps just push that point further and is only a small detail but overall adds to the feel of the project as a whole.

While my final piece was the metaphorical interpretation of my mind my blog is my mind, my thoughts and feelings it's the more literal interpretation of what I was feeling and thinking at the time of me writing the annotations.

Time-laspe of Frozen Synaspe

After being told that my final piece was a health and safety risk due to sensor alarms and the potential risk of fire that while I wouldn't be up there during the exam period. I was told I had to remove the parts of the installation that violated the rules and store them away until moderation. So I decided to time-lapse the process and present it so the examiner can see. It is a style of video used typical to show the construction of art piece especially installations so I decided to play on this but make it about the deconstruction of my piece so it would fit in with other people's rules. Something which I have only just really gotten over myself with my anxiety and that it is okay to be you and express yourself anyway you want.

Personal Interview in 'Frozen Synapse'

After doing the audio and getting it to a standard where I feel it helps the piece in creating an atmosphere. I decided to fully realise the piece, I need to explore the last avenue left in fine art, film. I've decided that I want to have a personal interview made about my final piece and the corridor where I have presentation my work as this will allow me to capture the essence of the room and corridor better than photography I feel also by doing this film it allows me to get really personal with the audience and further pushes this idea that I want these piece to be like an art piece you'd see in a gallery and further emphasis the 'personal' in personal investigation
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After doing this interview I have decided that, I want to it film reactions from people that see the piece with a Go-Pro hidden in my room. Along with this I am also going to have a comments book so I can also have some quotes and comments from various people about what they think and what they're interpretation of the piece is, to not only see if I have encaptured the feeling of anxiety but whether or not the viewer understands what the piece is about.  

Audio in 'Frozen Synapse'

After a trial run of presenting my work to a group of AS students and getting them to give me give me their opinion. I decided that by using a song with lyrics and from an artist that is heavily in the news at the minute, I am taking focus away from not only my work but the atmosphere itself because you concentrate on the music rather than the experience as a whole.
 So I have decided to record numerous different objects you hear everyday like the ticking of a clock and I am going to merge them all together into one track in GarageBand and create my own song of white noise. This then means I have created everything that is in my piece and because it's white noise you focus on the piece and it is just noise in the background adding to the atmosphere that you'd ignore on a daily basis but is emphasised here due to the silence.

Photographs of my Presentation in the Dark

A few photographs of how the corridor looks in the dark, this is intended way to view the corridor similar to the final piece. This creates this dark uncertain atmosphere which I feel really helps push forward the theme of anxiety and playing on the paranoia that anxiety can bring with it. I like this idea particularly when looking at the photo with the lamp shade and the photos of the photo frames with the string which is supposed to resemble guts spilling out of the walls giving this essence of the piece being a being and feeling alive and taking over.

Final Bits to the Presentation of my Investigation

 After printing off my essay and correcting it to a point I was happy with it I decided to originally put it up on the wall I had wallpapered. After doing this however I decided that it was too much to put into such a small space and in turn de-valued the visual aspect of the work so I decided that I would put it beyond the door and have the 'A-Level' part of the work away from the actual piece itself so that it could have the full impact I want, similar to how I'd want it to look if I put it in a gallery.

The series of photographs below show how I've presented the work with the lights on so that you are able to see the photos and the way the corridor looks.

 

 

 

 

 

Further Development of Presenting my Work

Just a few photo's of the development of the presentation of my work and me adding my essay and my name and the title of my final piece and my entire personal investigation as a whole. 

I had the idea to do the Kalms running out of the bottle to add further little touches to the aesthetic of the piece but also to add texture to the shelf that my sketchbook are being presented on, it also is a metaphor for life being too much for everything overflowing and not being able to cope. I did this by getting some photo paper and applying a very thick layer of glue and then pouring the Kalms out of the bottle to create a natural flow, I then dried them to not only burn some of the tablets to give them colour and nice tone but also so that I could mostly dry them and then leave them over the holiday to set into the place dripping off the shelf. 

Even as just a little touch to add to the overall atmosphere I think this worked really well as it is not only something that helped me in my anxiety but it also allowed me to express the feeling of being overwhelmed in the form of texture which I understand.